tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-81275992510837683982024-02-07T21:39:45.447-08:00Celestial MessagesThis is a place where I write lessons I am learning or lessons I feel I need to share. I free write everything which means there is little to no editing. I go with the moment and how I feel. I let the words flow from my fingers to the keyboard and that allows for grammatical errors. I am hoping to grow this page so if you find it helpful please share. The more people we reach the greater humanity will benefit. Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.comBlogger146125truetag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-36970648859902556872018-05-23T08:06:00.002-07:002018-05-23T08:06:17.918-07:00GettingLostI guess we all get lost from time to time.<br />
Falling from our directive.<br />
Even those we love the most can feel we fall short of their expectations.<br />
It is there expectations though.<br />
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THE ONLY TIME WE ARE LOST<br />
Is when we are trying to follow someone other person's idea of what our path should be.<br />
I sometimes get so angry at the fact that people expect me to do or be something I can not do or be. <br />
I am as transparent as clear cellophane.<br />
I open my wounds to others.<br />
I show others I bleed.<br />
I show my imperfections.<br />
I argue my points.<br />I disagree with others.<br />
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I live on my path.<br />
So if someone thinks I am lost, that is their perception.<br />
If I feel like I am lost, I am probably trying to ride someone other persons expectations of me.<br />
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Authenticity means being honest with who you are.<br />
Trying to be compassionate and loving towards others.<br />
Not trying to hurt others when you don't agree.<br />
But trying to find inner peace with the fact that everyone is on their own Journey!<br />
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If you think someone is lost stop and ask yourself,<br />
Which Journey did I expect them to be on?<br />
If a client comes to me and says, "I am lost,"<br />
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"Whose Journey are you trying to follow? Whose rules are you following on your Journey?"<br />
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Don't get lost,<br />
Follow your truth<br />
Live Authentically<br />
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When you find yourself wandering<br />
Enjoy the journey<br />
It's not really being lost<br />
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<br />Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-33399508973756364612018-03-22T07:53:00.000-07:002018-03-22T07:53:14.992-07:00Get on your knees and pray to whatever you believe inI uttered those words on my private facebook page. <div>
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There was an out cry of fear. People telling me that statement is ominous. </div>
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How can a statement of faith be ominous unless you have fear or do not truly have faith?</div>
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First let me define my God: He is not a traditional version of God. My God is an energy of love, compassion, kindness, unending spiritual intelligence and did I mention Love. He is the energy we all strive to be.</div>
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I walked outside with my dogs and closed my eyes. Sadness, fear and fatigue have been plaguing me. My truest sadness feeling that we are at the end of days. The ending feeling ever present over my shoulder. I closed my eyes and felt a fire burning inside of me like none I have felt before. A rage at the state of the world, the focus on the negative and I felt a tear fall down my face. That is the moment an overwhelming calm washed over me. A moment of pure bliss I have now assigned this sensation after years of working with spirit to Jesus.</div>
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The download was simple, "get on your knees and pray."</div>
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We spend more time in front of the internet reading articles, fighting with people, getting angry when people do not see our point of view that we forget to just pray.</div>
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Pray: to address or make a solemn request of state appreciation and thanks to a deity, god, an object of worship.</div>
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This is not about saying a traditional Hail Mary or some other traditional prayer, this is about praying, and focusing on love, appreciation.</div>
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There is a real fear, kids are being killed, focus on negative impacts of politics, letting the color of skin, religious choices, politics and a cluster of a thousand other issues divide us. We will never agree with everything our friends think. We will never agree with every stance on an issue or view on a topic. We have lost friends over how we vote, whether we believe in getting rid of AR-15 or how we choose to worship. Why are we letting the world be divided by hate and fear?</div>
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We see movements towards equality and then we fear again. Faith is something greater than us is lost and we flounder. WE doubt because there is suffering. Having faith through the ugly is truly the test of our belief is it not? Is that not the time we have to send out more positive, love and compassion. We need to work as a community to accept other peoples belief systems and story. </div>
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Every religion can bring about positive out comes for the members if they hear the positive messages, not the fear written into the stories. The bible was initially from God and then Man put his hand into the work and turned it into a fear based faith. That is not what we are supposed to follow, fear. Fear, hate, discord leads to negativity.</div>
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The devil is not going to bring about the end of days because humans are already doing that. They are already creating their own discord. We are destroying ourselves, our souls and the earth.</div>
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Change you.</div>
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How does your Garden Grow?</div>
Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-59669399416120401252018-03-12T09:52:00.000-07:002018-03-12T09:52:05.931-07:00Monday ponderings<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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Last night I had a gallery and there was a man who came through. His name was Al, as he was talking to his daughter he was ranting. He was talking about how he was a hard worker and the problem with society today is we are a bunch of complainers. Our boss is mean, oh boo hoo, go look for another job then. Stop blaming the boss for your misery, if you are there you know how he/she is and you can just ignore it, learn how to deal with him/her. Stand up for yourself, if you loose your job it wasn't meant to be. Be thankful you have a job, car, roof over your head. It's not the size of the house, the car you drive that defines success, it's how you enjoy your life!</div>
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NOW, this goes against every core of who I am. To attack anyone because of their way of dealing with pain, hurt, crazy bosses. However, he reminded me of a very important lesson, we sometimes choose misery. The saying, "misery loves company", popped in my head. It is true, in the land of social media we just have a complaint platform don't we? People commiserate with us, send us the I am so sorry you are feeling this way posts. Really though, no one can fix that for you. No one is going to go up to your boss and yell at them.</div>
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When I was growing up my Dad worked 14-18 hour days nearly every day, 7 days a week. Now I hear people bitch about only working 40 hours a week. People love to complain, because then others complain and we have people who understand us, isn't it great? That is the T-Rex, that is why he is here, because complaining eats everything up. It can become a ginormous monster if we allow it, sharp teeth digging into us, destroying out joy.</div>
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Today I saw 20 complaints about daylight savings time, 7 abused dog photos, 27 complaints about the impending storm, and the list goes on. We sit in negativity as a society sometimes, looking at all that is going wrong. Is that because as a society we are all raised to fix things, or be a problem solver? I am not sure but it is becoming more and more prevalent. I have a lot of friends who have gone of social media completely and found center, balance and a better perspective of what is important to them. </div>
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Be grateful for what you have, share when you can and if a job is making you that miserable, change it. </div>
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How does your garden grow?</div>
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Blessings</div>
Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-82255571937333087562018-03-02T15:34:00.000-08:002018-03-02T15:34:12.358-08:00Back to Blogging<div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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There is something beautiful about nothing. </div>
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I don't know how to explain it really but to say it is simply ease.</div>
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I feel often in the quiet I am most closely connected to the source of love and light.</div>
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I would say when I am in silence I am most myself.</div>
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Silence works for me.</div>
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Here it is Friday, my phone is broken and I am looking at the computer.</div>
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I thought, what haven't I done in a while.</div>
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I have not sat in silence. </div>
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I sat for a minute.</div>
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I realized how much I dislike human form.</div>
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I realized how much I dislike human stress.</div>
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I realized how much I dislike human disease.</div>
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I realized how much I dislike human complacency.</div>
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I realized how difficult being a human is.</div>
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I am not sure I have a solution for this condition we call life,</div>
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But it is just a condition.</div>
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A very short stay on a big world.</div>
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A very short stay in a dimension.</div>
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Then I thought, but many keep coming back.</div>
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Why do we want to come back here.</div>
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There are wonderful things</div>
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We often get stuck in the tactile sensations of human existence</div>
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We forget we are in charge of it</div>
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We choose what things we want</div>
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We choose what people we keep and let go of</div>
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We choose every day to direct our life</div>
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Yet many blame others for loss or failures</div>
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Some look at themselves for errors and get angry at themselves</div>
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None of that helps our souls grow</div>
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What does is</div>
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Silence</div>
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Sitting inside of ourselves</div>
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Releasing our fears</div>
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Our disdain for our humanness</div>
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Filling it full of LOVE</div>
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Filling the space with in our soul and heart with LOVE</div>
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Your time here may already be half over</div>
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It might be time to say goodbye tomorrow</div>
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Can you say you lived in love</div>
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You forgave yourself</div>
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Or were you always chasing the dollar</div>
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For what</div>
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A nicer car</div>
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When I chase dollars</div>
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It is for basics</div>
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<br />Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-19977681377341172272017-07-28T11:53:00.000-07:002017-07-28T11:53:00.283-07:00Book Writing and the Evolution of a Story<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I am not the greatest writer.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I fail basic grammar rules.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I fail keeping my shit together.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I just fail at writing in a proper manner approved by American Standards but screw that noise.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What I fail in grammar correctness, spelling perfection I make up for in passion.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I make up with mental candy and spiritual thoughts.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Helvetica Neue, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I was working on my book and at first it was my Ghost Stories and how I embraced by Medium status. It was about how I embraced ME! Well how egocentric is that? I was like, "What are you doing Celeste? Isn't the point of this book about helping others grow?"</span><br />
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All of our beliefs hinge on our up bringing and then the things we read and then.....<br />
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The more we explore, the more we push ourselves through meditation and study we learn even more.<br />
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My Journey is not right for everyone and some journey's are not right for me. As I watch some people stop the journey I think, "that is all they need." <br />
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Let us not judge other people on their Journey. Let us not tell them how to get there. Do not belittle those who do not do as you do but raise them up to find their path. Help light their way and if they diverge from your path pray a light will come to help them continue on their way. <br />
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Spirit, GOD, Universal Knowledge is at every persons spiritual finger tips. You have to put the time and energy into the meditation, journaling, and studying however that suits you. Follow your intuition as you study and follow your path.<br />
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My new book title.<br />
Spiritual Growth and the BS that comes along with it.<br />
If we can't smile, laugh and be with joy, we are missing the point of the journey. One can not lead the spiritual evolution with a lower vibration of EGO over running their methodology. I have taken my ego out of the story and focused on the how to and the consequences of choosing a more spiritual path. The consequences like letting go of ego and letting go of energies that are pulling you down. Having to let go of all your teaches and create a vulnerability like you have never felt. Strip yourself of all trauma and trouble, to rebuild by taking what you need and leaving behind what you don't.<br />
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It is a story where I will touch on my experiences as an example but not as the story.<br />
I lost my father in law, my uncle, my father to stroke and then death, my mother, my child inside of me and what is left, a rawness that I had to face. That rawness in the last year has revised a ton of my understanding. <br />
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How does your Garden Grow?<br />
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<br />Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-32633925985697978102017-06-13T07:50:00.000-07:002017-06-13T07:50:28.605-07:00I've been absent from my Blog but not my LIFELife has a funny way of twisting and turning is all around.<br />
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Since my last blog in June of 2016 my father has passed away, I have moved and I got an office.<br />
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In the grand scheme of things I have not written, not just because of the events in my life but because I have been present in my life.<br />
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As weird as it sounds I have been trying to make more of an effort of being present in my life and further away from electronics. I realize that in some ways this has been a blessing and in other ways it has created a void between my creative self and my work/mother/sister/daughter/wife self. <br />
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I had spent many years on Improv and Stand-Up, creating laughter is a passion of mine that I dropped.<br />
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I had spent many years trying to be more focused on writing, creating thought or entertainment is a passion of mine I dropped. <br />
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Sometimes life does this weird thing of redirecting our ego into different directions. This is not always a bad thing but it is a thing. <br />
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I am not more focused on blending all of my parts into one.<br />
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The first step is more meditation and being okay with making time for the electronics. I should not fear the thing that allows me an opportunity to reach out to those I want to. <br />
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I am presenting a class on mindfulness as I am focusing more on those things myself. I have so much knowledge and yet I have not been implementing the techniques and information I have learned. I have forgotten to release my fear. <br />
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As I write this I am putting out to the universe that I trust they will bring forth what I need to honor all previous obligations financially and emotionally I have made.<br />
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Blessings to all,<br />
I hope to get back to this blog more frequently and once I start my classes back up hopefully more posts to tie in to conversations regarding the classes. <br />
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How does your Garden Grown?Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-56575490910178205632016-06-14T11:09:00.000-07:002016-06-14T11:09:07.813-07:00Humanity and it's beautiful twisted faults<div style="text-align: center;">
I AM NOT PERFECT</div>
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I have seen more and more people struggle with saying these four words.</div>
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I AM NOT PERFECT</div>
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I am allowed to make mistakes</div>
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I am allowed to fail people</div>
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I am allowed to be angry</div>
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I am allowed to be sad</div>
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I am allowed to be hurt</div>
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I am allowed to not like someone</div>
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I am allowed to make a judgment of what is best for me</div>
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I am allowed to be hateful </div>
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I am allowed to experience every human emotions there is because I AM HUMAN</div>
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I am allowed NOT TO HAVE PERFECT PUNCTUATION AND GRAMMAR</div>
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BY GOLLY I AM HUMAN</div>
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STRIVING FOR PERFECTION</div>
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As spiritual beings many of us strive to not judge, be a pillar of love and kindness. We try to talk ourselves out of our every day emotional experiences thinking we need to somehow rise above the humanity in us all.</div>
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I think it is beautiful when we get angry!</div>
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I think it is beautiful when we are moved to experience emotions.</div>
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I think it is necessary for humans to not see as life a battle between being an all loving and perfect soul vs our humanity.</div>
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We are here to learn lessons and each of those listed and many more are emotions or moments to grow from. To just trust that we had a reason to experiences things the way we did. To not judge ourselves as imperfect but rather imperfectly perfect.</div>
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I remember, a few years back, I struggled with accepting that I could be angry or not like people. I may not like them but I still send them love and compassion. I hope they grown and learn to be more soul like and less ego like. The fact of the matter is though, we never will be just soul like until we die. If I have a mentor come to me like she is already an Angel here I can not trust her. I need someone who understands the fact we chose to come here and experience life again for a reason. We should not walk away from the opportunity, but use it to understand how to be more soul like. </div>
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I know that sounds a little contradicting but it isn't.</div>
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Our goal here is to experience our selves in a human form, all the while trying to keep in tact our souls purpose. That purpose is to live in this body with love, compassion and kindness. To be able to forgive our human side and move forward from the need to control every aspect of our existence.</div>
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It's okay to be imperfectly perfect. Embrace that, love it.</div>
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Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-66226132364419510722016-04-03T07:28:00.001-07:002016-04-03T07:28:31.793-07:00Here I go, oh dearI have not written in a while and there are a thousand reasons for this.<br />
None of which are valid.<br />
If I then look at the truth, much closer, I can blame Facebook.<br />
I can blame work.<br />
I can blame my children.<br />
I can blame Facebook.<br />
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I get so wrapped up in wanting to get away that I forget that I need to get here. <br />
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It is funny how we can waste precious moments of our life. <br />
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I feel like it might be time to end an era. <br />
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End the compulsive addiction to knowing what is going on in the world, and focus on the moments we have left with our world. <br />
<br />
I believe it is time to close down Facebook.<br />
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I admit to having an addictive personality, I easily can get wrapped up in stuff that lack importance. Facebook, games, etc.<br />
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I know we need things to do for ourselves, to get away from it all, but that is why I used to write stories. That is why I write at all.<br />
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I am not an English Scholar and screw up grammar stuff all the time. I am just grateful that my spelling is not terribly atrocious. <br />
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What I am realizing is this, time is precious and I spend far too much of it working. I spend far too much of it on Facebook. I am working to have a job that works for me and not me working for a job. I am working towards doing what I love, teaching more, helping more and hopefully, if all goes well, being there for more people. <br />
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I am going to be focusing on my Blog and questions you may have. <br />
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So please, if you can go to <a href="http://www.celestialmessagesct.com/">www.celestialmessagesct.com</a><br />
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You can also go to my Facebook page celestial messages ct<br />
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If you go to my web page it will tell you when I am updating stuff. <br />
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Please consider your life and it's purpose. <br />
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Sometimes we get so wrapped up in stuff, other peoples stuff, but why? <br />
<br />
How does your garden grow?<br />
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Mine is in the process of plucking weeds, and it is a much needed process.<br />
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Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-87869032481970191172016-01-29T09:02:00.001-08:002016-01-29T09:02:19.321-08:00Move on or pause and celebrate.
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Pondering thoughts:</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I was pondering, I was thinking, I was wondering if as a
parent I am right, or am I wrong.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not in
a general black and white sense, but in a, for this kid do they need that, does
my other kid need this.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I questioned
myself about one thing, one very real, solid, tangible human experience that I
wonder if we need it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">My daughter plays Cello and she loves it.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">When she finishes a piece she moves forward.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">She gets something harder, more complex, a challenge.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Then she gets through that.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">She moves on.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">This is how learning an instrument works.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">This is how education works.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">This is how life works.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We learn to crawl.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We move on.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We learn to walk.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We move on.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We learn to run.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We move on.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We learn to babble.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We move on.</span></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial;">We learn to talk.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial;">We move on.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial;">We learn to sing. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial;">We move on. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial;">We move on.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">So we celebrate the victories.</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial;">We celebrate the moving forwards and the bigger steps. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial;">Do we celebrate the sitting still?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial;">Do we celebrate the resting?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial;">Do we celebrate the quiet peace?</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial;">DO WE CELEBRATE EVERYTHING?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">What is wrong with sitting still?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">What is wrong with not pushing ourselves to constantly move
forward?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Why do the words unmotivated, lazy, even exist?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">What if we could celebrate the quiet pauses in life once in
a while?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Don’t just push through to victories because as you see
above, every victory reached makes you set a new goal.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If one lives their lives constantly trying to
move forward but never stops for the quiet pauses and enjoy them, have we even
lived really?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Our life should not be constant stress.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It should be moving towards goals with many
silent pauses in the middle where we can appreciate all we have done, all we
continue to do and all we will become.</span></div>
Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-64331453838884311552016-01-13T10:29:00.001-08:002016-01-13T10:29:53.733-08:00Life changes, why is it so hard?I equate big life changes as this.<br />
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Many say they are like climbing up a hill to reach your destination.<br />
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I feel more like it's coming down the mountain after you reached the top and falling all the way down with no control. You are dazed and confused when you get to the end and wonder, "How the hell did I get here and where the hell am I?" <br />
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I prayed to open a daycare for YEARS. I finally did, I worked hard to get here, but my heart is in helping others. My heart is in my readings, healing, and spiritual pursuits. <br />
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When I was little I used to say I wanted to be a parapsychologist. That I wanted to work with ghosts but you can't make any money doing that. I have been proven wrong. The other great thing about being proven wrong is that now I know what I can do and what I can't.<br />
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As I continue to muddle through this process of being pushed off the ledge I often question which direction is going to secure the future. The funny thing is, really funny thing is, the changes that left me with scrapes, bruises and fear are the ones that have served me the best. The ones where I felt like I was constantly against a wall pushing forward offered me the most lessons.<br />
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So the point is, life changes leave bruises and that is why it's scary. We wonder how long it will take to heal? How much time before I get to where I get all the ducks following me again and not tripping me up? When I fell did I accidently tumble in the wrong direction? Why am I further away than where I was before? All of these who, what, where, when and whys leave is curled in a ball sometimes. We sit there waiting for a rescue party but we realize our only way to our final destination is our own two feet.<br />
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So when you fall down the hill and you are wondering why the ground is no longer beneath your feet, when you finally stop. Know that you were on the wrong path to begin with, so now you are set right. <br />
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Keep hiking on my friends.<br />
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How does your Garden grow?<br />
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Mine is growing by leaps and bounds.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-44629081310279261652015-11-22T19:30:00.000-08:002015-11-22T19:30:01.072-08:00ARCHER RELEASEWe all make mistakes<br />
We all fuck up<br />
We all hurt people<br />
At some point if we continue to make the same mistakes<br />
It becomes a choice<br />
We need to accept that if we continue to lie to someone it's a choice<br />
If we lie when we don't need to that is a choice<br />
If we cheat once it could be a mistake<br />
More than once, a choice<br />
If we use hurtful words once it's a mistake<br />
If we do it more than once it's a choice<br />
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Be the Archer. <br />
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A-Accept<br />
R-Recover<br />
C-Change<br />
H-Help<br />
E-End<br />
R-Release<br />
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Accept that you are not perfect and made a mistake.<br />
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Recover from the pain you caused yourself by the pain you have caused others.<br />
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Change your behavior that you keep repeating. If you promise to change and then repeat the behavior again you have not changed and can not be upset if people block you out of their lives, even if temporary. <br />
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Help yourself move on but let them know you have changed. You CAN NOT make them forgive you but you can apologize so that you can move on.<br />
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End a relationship that keeps creating this toxic behavior in yourself. Even if you love them it isn't right to continue to hurt someone. Tuck this away as a lesson.<br />
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Release this situation and move on, promise yourself you are going to try to create a better, healthier pattern in other relationships. <br />
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Be the archer. <br />
Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-13128593011524958602015-11-17T11:22:00.002-08:002015-11-17T11:22:56.176-08:00OopsOops<br />
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It's a simple word, I think I used it a ton as a kid. <br />
Oops I spilled the milk<br />
Oops I broke the plant<br />
Oops I dropped my bowl<br />
Oops I killed a bug<br />
Oops I broke my toy<br />
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What I find is, as I became an adult I stopped using oops. I also stopped having humility.<br />
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Oops, I am sorry I hurt your feelings.<br />
Oops, I didn't mean to forget your birthday.<br />
Oops, I am sorry you feel I don't love you because I have been distant.<br />
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OOPS OOPS OOPS<br />
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I know very human beings lately who are okay with making mistakes. Mistakes, it is a part of the human experience.<br />
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You know what else, I don't see anymore, people being honest. <br />
<br />
Celeste you are complaining about something again.<br />
Celeste you can't seem to get your head out of your rear end.<br />
Celeste you are not being nice today. <br />
Celeste you need to be more responsible for the way you present information.<br />
Celeste.....<br />
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So I can say oops I am sorry but I can only apologize if real friends are honest with me. <br />
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I have come to feel black listed from a certain group of people I loved a great deal. Do you know what?<br />
I have not asked them about it. <br />
I have not asked if they want to get together. <br />
I have not asked them if I did something wrong. <br />
They have not told me I have. <br />
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So who black listed me? I DID! <br />
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Communication is so important so that it gives us a chance to say, "Oops I am sorry." It also allows us the chance to walk away from something that doesn't serve us. So if someone keeps telling us how horrible we are but 30 other people tell you that you are awesome, guess what you need to let go of? Not the ones who love you.<br />
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So anyway, just some random thoughts written in a very free, fluid kind of thought pattern. Maybe this makes no sense and it's a ramble of epic proportions. Or maybe just one of you will understand why Oops and I am sorry need to come back. Why true and honest friendships need to be front and center. How it is we are all very much human. <br />
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Forgive often (yourself and others)<br />
Love deeply <br />
Apologize honestly<br />
Be honest<br />
Open up channels of communication with out expectations <br />
Be free of judgment of others<br />
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BREATHECelestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-18847164868649563932015-10-19T09:41:00.002-07:002015-10-19T09:41:26.714-07:00Humans: The Catch 22 of life
<span style="font-family: Arial;">People often ask me what our purpose is here on earth.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Why do we live and why do we die.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>What do we do to get it right?<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The answer isn’t simple but it is
achievable.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Our souls come to experience the physicality of the world
around them.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">They come to learn lessons so that they can achieve a
greater soul vibration.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">They come because they are going to be a lesson for someone
else.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Our souls want to be able to thrive as a loving, giving soul
among chaos and destruction that humans create. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">The short answer, we come here to live.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We are not created to be perfect, but we come perfectly
created.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">As we grow so does our ego, so does our humanness.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I believe every person on this earth has a role, something
to teach, from the Buddha to the killer, from the child to the adult, from the
CEO of a large corporation to the homeless family on the street. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Our soul’s energy will resonate with different people
depending on our goals.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">The dirtiest secrets in our world, the killers are here to
teach us how to forgive.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>(Not easy I
know.)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">The greedy humans are here to teach us to live simplistic
and with very little.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">The Homeless on the street are here to teach us to give
compassion and kindness no matter what their story.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">The children are to remind us of our connection with the
universe.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">The adults are here to help the child follow their
connection through life, no matter where it may lead. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Do not hesitate for a moment to not think that YOU are not
important in this web we call human life.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">With out you a child may not be born that will change the
world.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>With out you a homeless person
may not get a smile one day.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>With out
you a pet may never find compassion.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>With out you a plant may never be planted.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Every thing we do impacts the world around us
and we all need to be a part of that.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>The good, the bad and the downright ugly of this life all have a point,
a purpose.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Please do not think there is no purpose in this life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You may not have the masses know your
name.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You do have the opportunity to be
famous to someone, because you have them a hug at their lowest point, or you
offered them food or money when things got tough.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To someone you may be their beacon of hope
that they can overcome greater obstacles in life because you did.</span></div>
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<o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">You are exactly where you belong.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">How does your Garden grow?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Remember to plant your bulbs (Dreams) now so they will blossom
in the spring. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Love and light</span></div>
Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-26314624538798022852015-09-11T11:16:00.001-07:002015-09-11T11:16:21.409-07:00I just need to hear it. I want to be part of a tribe.I just need to hear it. The elusive words we are all seeking.<br />
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I love you.<br />
I am proud of you.<br />
You are amazing.<br />
I didn't know you had that in you.<br />
Etc, etc, etc<br />
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For me it goes beyond that. I think for many it falls into a broader category than the "I" it falls into the "us". <br />
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I love you turns into (we are together).<br />
I am proud of you turns into (we are together)<br />
You are amazing turns into (I enjoy your presence)<br />
I didn't know you had that in you turns into (you have proven yourself worthy)<br />
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In the end Improv left me lonely as I do not have a tribe I belong to.<br />
My stand up is lonely because I have no one near me to go to open mics with or knows how to even get things moving in CT. <br />
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In the end my tribe tends to be my spiritual friends. So why is it that despite the greatest tribe around us we can still long for the tribe we don't feel like we belong or we haven't been accepted into?<br />
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I question this a bit as the loss of time devoted to Improv and comedy has dwindled I have quickly been forgotten and replaced by the new people, the young people, the cool people, and yup using high school mentality here. Is it always this way for everyone or is it this way for those who didn't have a tribe early on?<br />
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I believe a great deal that people are pack animals, it is in our genetics somewhere. Even those introverts who wish to be alone at times still want a small pack. It isn't about the hundreds you could be with but those you enjoy being with. Those who make you feel safe being you. Because in a pack the group is together, looking out for each other.<br />
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Even though in life we are ultimately alone in everything we do, it is the idea of the Zebra, they are all together, to distract the Lion but in the end they need to run alone. We still need those other Zebras to feel safe. <br />
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I am not sure these ramblings make any sense but a huge part of who I am and was for the last two years is gone and rather lonely. So it got me thinking about how blessed I am and lucky I am for what I do have. Yet sometimes, that isn't enough. I just need to hear it.<br />
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You are funny turns into (we laugh with you).<br />
You should join us for improv turns into (you are not that shitty we want you with us).<br />
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The damage that is done to our brain when we are kids. Not fitting in, not feeling like people care about you, spending every night alone at home reading, translates into, I just need validation.<br />
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Is it a bad thing to validate people? I mean if it is true, I never encourage lying. What if we don't lie, what if we tell people they are no good? Would they stop trying to be part of that tribe and heal? Would it cause more damage?<br />
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I have answers, I know what I need, I need truth. <br />
I have answers for me.<br />
You have answers for you.<br />
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How is your Garden growing?<br />
<br />Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-77483305749175953842015-08-22T18:52:00.002-07:002015-09-11T11:05:01.062-07:00We expect a lot as a bunch of runawaysYou would think that a country built on people running from their home land to avoid religious persecution; we would be more free and open to others opinions. The only thing that our forefathers took with themselves is the feeling of them being right and others being wrong.<br />
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So we killed the natives.<br />
We stole people from their homes and enslaved them.<br />
We denied marriage, equal rights for all and yet that is and was the exact thing we were trying to run from.<br />
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I question the integrity of the human soul at times when I see others hurt. <br />
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I question the integrity of the human spirit when we say others are less worthy of food, shelter or money.<br />
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I question the integrity of the human condition when we allow humans suffering on the streets with their children.<br />
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I question the integrity of the human mind who feels money is more important than kindness.<br />
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I question the integrity of the human ego, oh wait, no I don't.<br />
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Our souls are meant to be compassionate and yet I hear political arguments about whether we should supply money or food stamps and how those people shouldn't be able to buy certain foods. YET, no one wants to teach them to live on their income and/or teach them how to purchase healthy foods and eat right for less. Can they even do it these days?<br />
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DO YOU KNOW WHO IS STARVING? OUR CHILDREN? <br />
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How much would we benefit if Human Services became Humane Services and taught people the benefit of gardening, healthy foods, how to shop on a budget and make your money stretch. How to plan meals and help your children with homework, or even the basic concept of loving oneself so they have a desire to better themselves.<br />
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Instead they run away, some to drugs, others to depression, anger, blame, and we could change the world if we lived off the principle of guidance and help.<br />
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If we became HUMANE services not human service. If we serviced the entire person and not just the symptoms of their suffering.<br />
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Lead a horse to water and you can not make him drink, but if you give him the tools to find his way to the water, he will surely drink and appreciate it more. This is not a model for all, but for most.<br />
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Growth is about tools, evolution is about tools, yet we keep running away and blaming.<br />
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Also, stop laughing at The People Of Walmart, do you know their story? How dare we judge!!!! Let them be themselves, let them have mistakes, let them be who they are with out fear of persecution, isn't that why our forefathers came here? <br />
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When do we stop the persecution and start the humane services.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com2tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-2275409639262826882015-08-22T18:45:00.003-07:002015-08-22T18:45:40.567-07:00Reconciling my Emotional Bank AccountI have spent YEARS reconciling my emotional bank account.<br />
I am constantly trying to own my own emotions.<br />
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EBA= Emotional Bank Account a record of all of the emotional deposits and withdrawls you have made. Including the why you felt that way and how you feel if certain events happen to you.<br />
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How many times have I told you and even myself, "No one makes us feel a certain way, we feel it ourselves." They do not demand we feel betrayed, forgotten, lost, alone, angry, hurt, sad, broken hearted, happy, joy, peace, emotional bliss, etc., etc., etc.<br />
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We have been conditioned through life experiences to react in certain ways to events.<br />
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WE created a reaction to let downs, to words, to behaviors and we created these at an age where all we have is reaction, with little logic connected to the process.<br />
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The ego was strong, yessss?<br />
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So I go through and I do this reconciling of my emotional bank account. <br />
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I do this systems check so to speak, "why when I hear laughter from my comedy do I feel fulfilled, yet as soon as I am off the stage I feel like I am no good?"<br />
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WHY?<br />
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Why because, not just with Improv or Standup, not just with Mediumship or Spiritual Guidance, not just with Kickball or Softball, not just with Birthday Parties or Summer Outings but lots of things I was created to feel not good enough. My entire life was trying to live up to others expectations and living in the fear that I would fail them. So many times I would reach them but was still told I was failing them somehow. <br />
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When you grow up in a house where you are stuck between a mother who loves you and tries to build you up and a father that is not present but willing to tell you what is you have failed at, you grow up feeling self important and yet useless.<br />
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Such a contradiction of emotions and a struggle that is real. <br />
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I am sharing a TON of personal information and there is a point. This isn't really about me because I have reconciled my EBA (you can use that term too) but more than that it's an on going process. Just like anything else in your life, we have to maintain our EBA. We can't just buy our pets food for a month, it's a committment. We can not just pay our bills when we feel like it, we have to committ to the process. (Though some of us have struggles and can't pay things just to make ends meet, please do not judge yourself, please be at peace with where you are.) When we are born it is a life long committment to being the best we can be. Some choose to embrace this and others run from it and blame the world.<br />
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I think our EBA is the most over looked area of our lives. What if I asked you for a moment to think back to when the last time you were angry at someone? Could you define why? Not the situation that made you angry but the deep down core to the trigger that made you angry? Did they let you down AGAIN? Did they seem to talk down to you? What was the core and how far down does that core go?<br />
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I try so hard to step back and check in with my EBA when I get angry.<br />
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I can say there is one truth about me that I struggle to change. If someone lies to me I can not forget. I can forgive but I will never let you in my life the way you once were. Surface may seem fine but inside you broke the glass menagerie that is my heart. You took a chip out that can not be replaced and I will not allow myself to be subject to that again! WHY? Because my entire childhood was a lie and when I found out about that lie in my 20s I grew angry. So angry that I wanted nothing more then death. I remember telling my mother that I believed that God made a huge mistake leaving me hear when I could have easily had that dog kill me when I was eight years old. I remember the event like it was yesterday. I was watching the entire event from above my body and as I was hanging out in Heaven I was told I had to come back and had work to do, I was angry. I spent most of my life into my late 20's being angry and blaming the world. I didn't like me then and I certainly would never want to live that way again!<br />
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So I spend a lot of time working on my EBA. I spend many days questioning my reaction, where does it come from and how do I change my trigger reaction to similar events. I do this so I can be a better human for one and two so people have less power over my good day. <br />
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SO I CAN CHOOSE HAPPY!<br />
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So how does your spiritual Garden Grow?<br />
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CelesteCelestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-87454366787865038422015-07-20T15:48:00.003-07:002015-07-20T15:48:34.000-07:00Did you just judge me? Shame on you!
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">HOW DO YOU TALK ABOUT NOT JUDGING WITH OUT SOUNDING LIKE I
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I don’t hate you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I don’t judge you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">What in this society has created a belief that if people
have a different view/belief that they are judging you? </span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">As a Medium, Healer, Teacher I come across this a lot with
my peers.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">WE have to remember as a collective that all of us teachers
are here for a reason.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We are all
teaching various versions of a similar story so that we can reach more
people.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not one of us is above or below
each other.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We are walking side by side,
hand in hand, embracing, engulfing those who are seeking answers with
love.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We may not be the right person for
them and that is okay.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There journey is different
than ours and in the end we just wish them well on their journey.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I have hit this wall time and time again where I disagree
with someone and question where their belief came from and suddenly I am
judging them. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I no way am I judging anyone but I did not grow until people
pushed me to question where my understanding of God, The Devil, and The Universe
comes from.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Where did my idea and belief
system build from and was there anything there that no longer served me but I
held on to like a security blanket.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>To
be a proper teacher one must first put aside their beliefs and help the student
question theirs.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In turn possibly
changing the teacher’s belief or the students. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">If I state that I do not believe in ORBS because I
understand the science that is my choice.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>If you do not like that I hand you the science behind it that becomes your
belief but I am not going to back down from my belief.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I believe we were given spirituality and
science to coexist so we are not tricked and deceived by others.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That is my belief and if you believe
differently than so be it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will not
sit here and judge you.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">The stronger you are in your convictions and beliefs the
more people feel judged.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I question my
beliefs CONSTANTLY; I am continually looking for more answers and perhaps a
variation of my understanding.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am not
seeking those who think exactly like me but those who wish to broaden their
beliefs.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In the end we are all hear to
learn, listen, talk, ask question.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">DISCUSSION in and of itself means that you will discuss
topics, ask questions, state points of view.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>There is a beauty in understanding that each person’s journey is
different and that I am okay to believe what I want to believe.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I don’t want people to follow others blindly;
I want them to ask themselves, “WHY DO I BELIEVE THIS!”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If you do not agree with me I don’t think you
are judging me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Ask questions, that is how you learn.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Answer questions that are an even more
important part of the learning process.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Do not turn your back on those who make you uncomfortable in your
faith.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It may be time to listen or
question your own beliefs.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Breathe
through these changes in life and do not take everything personally. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I am not here to judge but guide.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">You are not here to judge but guide.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We are not here to judge but guide one another through this
thing called life.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Now if someone resorts to name calling and slandering you
behind your back, they are judging and they on a very different path than you. You can choose to stay around and try to help them or you can decide to get out of dodge.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I usually recommend the last option.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Nothing good has ever come from me trying to
reason with an aggressor.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Just don’t
assume people are judging you due to lack of agreement though.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not everyone is on the same path and that is AOKAY!</span></div>
Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-59914675019279269892015-07-11T15:55:00.002-07:002015-07-11T15:55:25.152-07:00What happened to real human interaction. The face of over sensitivity.I wonder what has happened to society at times. <br />
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Have we been raised that discussion simply means each person states their thought and opinion and we leave it at that?<br />
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What happened to proper communication and explanation? <br />
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What happened to, "I don't agree with you and here is why?"<br />
What happened to, "I don't agree with you so I was wondering why you feel the way you do?" <br />
What happened to, "I may still not agree with you but it's your life/journey?"<br />
What happened to, "I am not of<span class="text_exposed_show">fended by everything that everyone says that doesn't fit into my bubble?"</span><br />
<span class="text_exposed_show">What happened to listening? </span><br />
<span class="text_exposed_show">I know, people have grown to be completely insulted by others not agreeing with them and it doesn't make sense to me. </span><br />
<span class="text_exposed_show">I will question you about your beliefs, I want to UNDERSTAND where you came from and how you came to where you are. Not because I am right and you are wrong, but because all of our unique experiences in life lead us to new roads to travel. </span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show">I was always taught to read the book from front to back. Not to just read the ending. I like to know the story, not the ending. We as humans are fascinating creatures and I see nothing wrong with wanting to explore a humans belief system or needs.</span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show">I don't understand a lot of what America has become. I do not understand a lot of what we as humans in general have become. I am just sitting here trying to understand why we can not do the following things. I promise if we did, nothing else would ever matter. </span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show">1. Treat each human being the way they should be treated. WE ALL MATTER</span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show">2. Be kind to each other.</span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show">3. We all deserve the same rights with love and life.</span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show">4. We all deserve the right to practice the faith and/or spiritual course we believe in.</span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show">5. We should all be a little more buddhist.</span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show">6. Love is free and should be shared with those in need. A hug doesn't cost you anything but a few seconds of your time.</span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show">Be kind, listen, understand and when you are yelling at someone about their poor behavior, reflect on what it is saying about what is going on inside of YOU!</span><br />
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<span class="text_exposed_show">Love, Light and Blessings.</span>Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-43413018457605046532015-05-27T09:44:00.001-07:002015-05-27T09:44:59.831-07:00Pain is a moment
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">HEART ACHE<span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">My beautiful son is 14 experienced his first break up.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The emotional struggle the same as any adult
going through a break up, divorce, etc.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Children feel pain just as strongly as we do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Their relationships may not be as physically
and emotionally mature as ours but the love is real.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am tired of the concept of pain and hurt
having expirations days and should vary in degrees based on how long you have
known each other.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Surely the loss of a
mother is harder than the loss of a partner.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>This is not true, this is not true at all.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Love=Hope</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Hope=Dreams</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Dreams=Future</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">All are crushed in one moment.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>In one small moment a good bye can have a
devastatingly emotional impact on your life. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">When someone comes to me grieving from any kind of loss the
first thing I say is, “your grief is unique to you and we may or may not
experience grief in the same way.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>There
are tools and tricks to help move through grief but truth of the matter is
grief can stick around for days, months, years, a century.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I worked with a client whose husband died 10
years ago and she still could not let it go.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Tricks to moving forward: </span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Focus on positive things</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Focus on friends</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Focus on family you have.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">No one persons’ heartache is harder or worse than any other
persons.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We need to let others
experience it how ever they need to.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Breathe and help them through it simply by being there.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Let them breathe into the pain.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I always say that, “breathe into the pain.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We need to learn to just breathe and
experience the pain, experience the moment for what it is.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Each moment is different and will be
completely new.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>So let it happen, let it
be felt.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then we learn how to navigate
through the future pains.</span></div>
Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-83694622180462232662015-05-27T09:38:00.000-07:002015-05-27T09:38:01.156-07:00Approval
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">One of the things I have struggled with is trying to
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">So I can let someone calling me a narcissist as a blow and
cry about it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I could try to change
their mind, or I could just accept that it is one persons’ opinion and their
opinions about who I am does not define me.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">WHAT?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">From the moment we are born we are seeking our parents to
help us.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We seek their approval as young
children, in our teens we seek the approval of our peers, teachers, than fellow
employees, bosses, etc.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We constantly
try to seek the approval of others, why?</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Because this is how we are raised.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It isn’t any fault, it is in our nature to
seek the approval of others.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I believe
it goes back to the entire hierarchy in humans that exists in the animal
kingdom.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>If you are not approved of or
accepted you are many times kicked out of the group and left to fend for
yourself.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That could spell certain death
in the wild.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>(This is not a scientific
study I read this is from my own personal observation.)</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">So as we use our primitive chimp brain which I will call our
human side.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Then there is the soul who
just craves love, peace and compassion.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I feel most empaths or sensitive will say that this can and will breaks
our hearts during times of distress and struggle not only in our lives but
around the world.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We have to seek a
reason.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We are constantly wondering why
people like us who try to spread joy, love are so often harshly judged.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We do one thing that is not deemed spiritual we
are attacked for being human.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It doesn’t
make sense.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">As I was meditating one day I had Jesus say to me, “we all
fall short of others expectations.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The
higher they place us the easier it is to fall down.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That is why it is important to define
yourself as human first and foremost.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Guess what, I am human.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Welcome to humanity.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I am not some angel.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I am not some guardian.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I am first and foremost a human here to learn lessons.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Perfection is no human beings to claim.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Be comfortable with your failures.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">If people don’t like you walk away.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">It’s their filters, their problem and somehow you were part
of their lesson.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">If you know you do all you can for the good of humanity and
the moments of human nature have snuck in and they judged you, it’s time to
walk away.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Be brave in your skin.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Strive to follow your SOULS requests. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Be okay with others judgements, we do not need their
approval.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We need only have approval of our own soul.</span></div>
Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-38493718070623635252015-04-22T09:27:00.003-07:002015-04-22T09:27:47.324-07:00Stronger Through the GlueTrauma<br />
Emotional<br />
Physical<br />
Sexual<br />
Mental<br />
Loss<br />
Trauma<br />
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Lack of acceptance<br />
Lack of love<br />
Abuse<br />
Hurtful words<br />
etc<br />
etc<br />
etc.....<br />
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Words hurt, actions hurt and we are left flailing in the sea of change and uncertainty. In a world where people don't have the words to help because you don't know where it broke. The only person who can glue your pieces back together is you. People can love you and support you but they can not fix that broken part of you. <br />
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When we are betrayed our hearts break, our souls yearn for understanding. We truly all are as pure as children and when we are harmed in anyway our soul goes, "Why would this happen to me?" Once we move past the "why me" we can start gluing that which is broken back together. I think the biggest mistake we make is trying to remain the same after all the chaos though.<br />
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When we are broken in anyway we can not possibly be exactly who we were before. There are pieces that never get found. There are pieces, missing pieces that will never fit right. It's okay though. Instead of trying to put ourselves back together the way we were it is our time to see who we can be by rebuilding something new. This is not a rushed process by any means. This is a slow and steady process of looking at each piece that is left and imagining what it could be. This should be exciting and new but it is also a bit scary. <br />
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I have always said I want to be who I used to be. I realized more than ever that isn't true. I don't want to still be scared of being on stage. I don't want to still be afraid to go out to the city by myself. I don't want to be afraid of telling people I see and talk to Dead People. It isn't a healthy part of who I was. I was in self protective mode all of my life. Truth is I want to see where I am going in the future. <br />
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Life is too short to worry about how to fit things back together exactly how they are and now we can start building ourselves into exactly what we want. Guess what, we might get broken again but stronger and stronger we become with the more glue we use. Eventually, becoming what we are meant to be. This break in my life, it didn't shatter all of me. I still have a strong core from years of fixing. <br />
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I don't love the "Phoenix" concept because the Phoenix rises from the ashes the same. Truth is, once we go down like that, we are never the same. <br />
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How does your Garden Grow? What part of yourself are you trying to preserve that serves no purpose any longer?<br />
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Blessings of love and light.Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-7042241839266803102015-04-21T11:28:00.004-07:002015-04-21T11:28:37.728-07:00The Fork in The Road
<span style="font-family: Arial;">I remember very vividly an interview with Adam Levine, one
that I thought struck me as funny.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He
had said, “I am never going to get married, I love doing my own thing too much.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I remember being that person too, and then I
got married and now that is falling apart around me.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I am not sure that marriage is a necessary thing for
everyone but I see people who thrive in marriage and other’s who don’t.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have come to realize that I am craving a
true, strong, soul to soul connection.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>If we ended up married eventually fine but if not that would be fine
too.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have seen people who have dreamy
ideals and others who look at it as a means to an end.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was looking at it as a means to an end in
some ways.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was alone, scared, taking
care of my son, a disabled father and I had no idea how I was going to manage
my life at all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I wanted to run away and
I did.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I ran to a wonderful, kind,
generous man who made an unforgivable mistake.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I then thought we found a solution but we didn’t.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It was just impacting me in a way that made
me doubt my self worth in general and not trust my own heart at all.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I met a friend, very accidently.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It sounds like some romantic fairy tale and
that can happen, even in friendships.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We
go in to something expecting one outcome and getting another.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I went in to get a tattoo and left with a
friend.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Someone I find to be very much a
symbol of all the things I am inside, a reflection of me in ways.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>He has made me see, with out saying a word,
that I was lying to myself. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I think the world of this new friend, so much so I probably
give him more credit than he is used to.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Being a mirror to someone is a weird and wonderful gift that we never
really realize we do.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>As I have said I
am a tattered patch work quilt, filled with torn pieces of broken dreams.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> I am still warm and useful. </span>I am not a solid quilt and I am sure I will
find more pieces and connect with others that will help me rebuild the
beauty of my life.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>For the first time in
a long time I feel like I have it all in front of me to put together.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I feel like my life is an endless possibility
of laughter and happiness.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This isn’t an
easy transition but a much needed step out into the world of, “here I am!”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">As my friend said, “take time to figure yourself out.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have, I know who I am and what I want.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I want to be friends with someone, hold their
hand, laugh, have no expectations, and it would be really cool if someone asked
me out to dinner or to just hang out.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Otherwise I will be contently sitting at home working on my family,
book, business and self.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I want someone
who has their own life, dreams, aspirations and friends.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will dream of that which may come, I will
plan more vacations, spend more time traveling.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I will work on trying new things, who knows, maybe someday I will jump
out of the plane.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">The biggest thing is I will be alive again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>That is more valuable than anything
else.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Why do I open myself up to be so vulnerable and honest,
because I am a Medium!<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I do not have all
the answers and I must learn my lessons also.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I have to take the hard road sometimes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>It is a good road though, it builds strength, character and back
bone.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">This is the year of changes and all of them will lead us to positive
roads.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Opening our hearts up to the endless possibilities that are
around us allows us to find the true joy in living.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">I love you my dear friend and am so thankful for you in many
ways.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I know you have said the same to
me, the appreciation but sometimes we never really know how we impact each
others lives.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I see your walls and I
ignored them and you reached past the, “I’m great where I am at” wall and made
me long for something different.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Life is short, and we need to remember to teach our children
to live it beautifully and embrace all the people who come into our lives.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>From a 15 minute consult to what I hope leads
to a life long friendship, I am grateful for my Raven, the bringer of messages.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">(Please note I did not make any edits to this post so any spelling or grammatical errors are here for the pure emotion in which it took to write this BLOG.) </span></span></div>
Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-91671140533701282042015-04-15T15:21:00.002-07:002015-04-15T15:21:12.300-07:00The Curtis House Restaurant and Inn my new love
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>There are a
few things I am passionate about, what I do and History.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>NOT the history in history books but the
stuff I hear and see.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>My father Lyman
Lamarre was a carpenter and we would often go through old homes, watch, “This
Old House” together.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>When I walk into an
older home it’s like going home for me every single time.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This was the experience at The Curtis House
Restaurant and <st1:place w:st="on">Inn</st1:place>.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">Just a side note, when I started on this journey, I had no idea how much I would fall in love with this place. Or perhaps how much this place fell in love with me. Maybe even the way we fell in love together.</span></span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>(The story
unfolds)</span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I got a
text from a very sweet client named Amy asking if I would consider doing an
event at The Curtis House Inn.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I said it
sounded interesting but was not sure if I wanted to do such a big event.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>It seemed a bit taxing but I said I would
talk to her sister.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I was excited but
nervous because as many of you know, I hate people to leave with out a reading.</span><span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>I later
spoke to Dorie, Amy’s sister and talked.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>As we were talking a lady came through and told me I had to go and, “Talk
to her first she had things to say.”<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>A
few weeks later I went and did a walk through like I would for any “haunted’
house.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This house is NOT haunted it is
alive with HISTORY.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The stories the
spirits told me made me so happy.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
never felt so at peace after leaving and left an impression on Dorie and the
family.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Some of you
may have heard the story about a spirit named Betty; well her name IS <st1:city w:st="on">Elizabeth</st1:city> and would like to be called <st1:place w:st="on"><st1:city w:st="on">Elizabeth</st1:city></st1:place>.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>She is a lovely lady and sometimes she bother spirit but it’s because of
something the people do in the room, so you best behave in that space.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I talked to a lovely man in the kitchen who
is excited about the future plans for the menu.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>If you have a chance to eat here I HIGHLY ENCOURAGE IT.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>THE FOOD IS AMAZING.</span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>Move
forward to the day of the Gallery, Dorie took care of every last detail and the
staff was beautiful.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>We wanted to do a
trial run and I WANT people to see this place.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>Needless to say we had an amazing turn out; we sold all 30 seats and had
others who were sorry to miss it.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I
managed to give a reading to all 30 people in two hours and ten minutes.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Any Medium who does readings will tell you
this is a near impossibility and I agree.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;">
</span>I feel 100% that the spirits want to see more people here and they want
this place to thrive.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>They helped me
help people and that is a beautiful combination.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I also can’t guarantee that will happen
again.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;"><span style="mso-tab-count: 1;"> </span>In the end
I went there again today, I walked in to a home, not a restaurant, not a bar,
not an <st1:place w:st="on">Inn</st1:place> I walked into a home.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Not any home, MY HOME, YOUR HOME, THEIR
HOME.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>Spirit wants people to be home
here.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I have another event coming up there,
and I will do a 100 more if it brings 1000 more people through the doors.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>This place is beautiful, it is a home filled
with past Inn Keepers and head Chefs trying to preserve history, to preserve
their home.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>OUR HOME!</span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Below are links to The Curtis House Restaurant and <st1:place w:st="on">Inn</st1:place></span></div>
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<a href="http://www.curtishouseinn.com/"><span style="color: blue; font-family: Arial;">http://www.curtishouseinn.com/</span></a></div>
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<a href="https://www.facebook.com/CurtisHouseInn"><span style="color: blue; font-family: Arial;">https://www.facebook.com/CurtisHouseInn</span></a></div>
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<o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> EVENT DETAILS:</span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">October 24, 2015</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">5:30pm to 9:00pm</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We start at 6pm with a paranormal talk; I will talk about
ghost verses spirit.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>The scariest things
I have seen and investigations I have done.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">7:-00pm-9:00pm Gallery <st1:city w:st="on"><st1:place w:st="on">Readings</st1:place></st1:city></span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">We also discussed the idea of offering rooms at a discounted rate so that
you can stay after and take a tour of the building.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>You get to hear some history and get some
first hand account of the history.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I am
also going to try to get some ghost stories to share.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> </span>I will talk about investigating etc, this is
a very special home to me so I ask that if you stay you plan to have a great
deal of respect for the living history in this home.<span style="mso-spacerun: yes;"> (MORE DETAILS TO COME)</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">Blessings. </span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial;">How does your Garden Grow?</span><o:p><span style="font-family: Arial;"> </span></o:p></div>
<span style="font-family: Arial; font-size: 12pt; mso-ansi-language: EN-US; mso-bidi-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-bidi-language: AR-SA; mso-fareast-font-family: "Times New Roman"; mso-fareast-language: EN-US;">Tell me, where are your other homes?</span>Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-9593104730449894602015-04-13T17:19:00.003-07:002015-04-13T17:19:46.653-07:00Compete with no one....In any job field there seems to be some competitiveness for jobs. We are always trying to prove ourselves to others. <br />
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<li>We are better than.... </li>
<li>We can do more work than.... </li>
<li>We provide more results than....</li>
<li>We are smarter than....</li>
<li>We have more college than....</li>
<li>We have more certificates than.....</li>
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We try so hard to prove ourselves to others but more often we prove ourselves by comparing ourselves to other people. We battle for supremacy over other human beings. Where has that gotten us?<br />
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I am not a better mother than....<br />
I am not a better wife than....<br />
I am a better Medium than....<br />
I am a better house cleaner than....<br />
I am better with my money than....<br />
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What if for one freaking moment we stopped. What if for one moment we said.... No YELLED<br />
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<strong><span style="color: red; font-size: x-large;">I AM GOOD ENOUGH!!!!</span></strong><br />
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I heard from my therapist, yes I went to therapy, that we are always good enough. Then we decide we want to improve on something, but it has to be for you. Because you see something in you that is good enough but might be able to be better. No one should force you to change. You shouldn't change for more money, love, or friendship. You should not change for anything except to meet your own personal desire to grow but you DO NOT have to. <br />
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Honestly, our soul craves growth so at some point we will always want to grow but that does not mean we are not good enough. We are good enough for this very moment, right now. Tomorrow we might want to work harder at it and that's okay. <br />
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NEVER do it for others....<br />
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NEVER DO IT TO BE BETTER THAN....<br />
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I HATE being compared to other Mediums, I am ME. I AM GOOD ENOUGH. I am not in competition with anyone else. Everyone else is GOOD ENOUGH.<br />
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Work on you and remember at this moment, you are good enough.<br />
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Celestehttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10924199195387712938noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-8127599251083768398.post-50267073519788225462015-03-17T13:21:00.000-07:002015-03-17T13:21:16.544-07:00It's them NOT youToday I got my feelings hurt. To hear that people have said negative things about you to others yet they talk kindly to your face it hurts. We all have done it at times and it happens but it doesn't take away from the person who feels the sting of our "bad" day. <br />
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What happens though when people do this consistently? <br />
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What happens when people constantly hurt us?<br />
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What is important to recognize is that when we say something about someone it isn't about them it's about us. It's about us deflecting something we don't like about ourselves onto them.<br />
I can not tell you how many times I hear people say they hate Drama and yet they are constantly miserable, people are horrible and they are the victim. We are not victims we are casualties of some other persons lack of love or maybe in some cases their own narcissism. <br />
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Today I became a casualty. <br />
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A casualty of people who have a different definition of friendship.<br />
A casualty to loose words and actions with no forefront.<br />
A casualty of some other persons bad day.<br />
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That knowledge helped very little at the time I reacted.<br />
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Every ones reactions are different, but mine went as follows.<br />
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<strong>Anger</strong> "Assholes how could they..."<br />
<strong>Frustration</strong> "Why is no one saying to them, talk to her, be an adult." <br />
<strong>Anger</strong> (Misguided to the people who heard the bad words and not defending me.)<br />
<strong>Internalized Sadness</strong> "Maybe I am a horrible person."<br />
<strong>Outward Sadness</strong> (tears and more tears, how can so called friends not just come to me. Do they think so little of me. I love these people and I have been hurt.)<br />
<strong>Recognition</strong> (It's them not me)<br />
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It took me about 6 hours to get to the last one. Six hours of an emotional roller coaster that I didn't want nor did I need. Six hours of me thinking poorly of others and then of myself.<br />
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SIX EMOTIONALLY WASTED HOURS.<br />
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Why in the world, with all the knowledge I have did I spend six hours on this?<br />
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Why?<br />
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We are human, we all want to be liked. We all want to be valued by others as much as we value them. We want to be valued by others as much as we value ourselves. In the long run though, in order to value ourselves the most we need to rise above the attacks others put on us.<br />
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LESSON HEARD<br />
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We can not always please everyone.<br />
We may occasionally say something that offends someone, if it happens and we are not a total ass then we should say, "I am sorry it was not meant to hurt you."<br />
We can not protect others feelings. <br />
We are human and it's okay to run with all of the emotions we need to to heal but...<br />
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We should try to rise above.<br />
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In order to do so we must understand....<br />
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Humans are by nature selfish. We may do selfless acts but we do selfless acts because it makes us feel good about ourselves. We are all selfishly human. In some ways my blogs are selfish too, I am trying to impart my wisdom to others and in the same time remind myself of what I hear and learn.<br />
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Humans do things not TOO us usually but "FOR THEMSELVES". <br />
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So when someone talks behind your back it is probably to vent or get a perspective that "agrees" with their feelings. As humans we want to be validated constantly.<br />
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When a human pushes you out of their life it's for their own benefit not to ruin your life. Yet we take it sooo personally, "HOW CAN YOU DO THIS TO ME!" Not, "I see you need something else to make you happy." After all, by admitting you were not enough for someone you are not validating your "I am good enough" need.<br />
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Truth is, the sooner we learn that we need to validate ourselves the sooner that peoples lack of validation won't impact our emotions so deeply. <br />
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<br />"You don't want me any longer in your life. I see, I did the best I could and I will find someone who will accept me for what I can offer not be hurt by what I didn't offer." <br />
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So today I want you to validate yourself. <br />
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I am good enough.<br />
I am a positive person.<br />
I give enough love.<br />
I give enough time.<br />
I am compassionate.<br />
I am kind.<br />
I am enough.<br />
I am enough for me. <br />
That is all I can be.<br />
I am good enough.<br />
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I see you, I love you.<br />
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How does your Garden Grow?<br />
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I found some pests in mine, but they need to eat too, so I gently moved them over to other plants I don't worry so much about. <br />
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