I forgot to update the lost off my Mother. She died August 28th, 2012. It has been only a month since she left, the emptiness I feel is quite numbing and yet at other times I am fine. It is Halloween time and a favorite time for me and my Mom. We have been looking at houses and reality is setting in that my Mom won't be here for that. I am feeling quite a bit of emptiness lately but when I yell at her for something, like I have to deal with probate now, I will instantly smell cigarette smoke, and none of us smoke in my house. I know she is around but man it sucks not to be able to pick up the phone. My step-father's cell phone still has my Mom's voice on the voicemail, sometimes I call it just to hear her again, and then I cry of course. No one really has any idea how much I am hurting, I try to look strong and move on with my life. I think that is all any of us can do.
Momma, I love you.
i imagine your mom smoked, and that is who you were referencing?
ReplyDeleteif so, does it give you comfort knowing she is by your side?
i am sorry for your loss, celeste.
may time bring you healing and peace.
leslie
Leslie I am sorry I never replied. It is a difficult thing at times to even keep track of time since my mother's passing. Yes she was a smoker all her life. She is a tricky one popping up here and there. I just trying to keep moving, but time is having a habit of slipping away from me.
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