GettingLost

I guess we all get lost from time to time.
Falling from our directive.
Even those we love the most can feel we fall short of their expectations.
It is there expectations though.

THE ONLY TIME WE ARE LOST
Is when we are trying to follow someone other person's idea of what our path should be.
I sometimes get so angry at the fact that people expect me to do or be something I can not do or be. 
I am as transparent as clear cellophane.
I open my wounds to others.
I show others I bleed.
I show my imperfections.
I argue my points.
I disagree with others.

BUT

I live on my path.
So if someone thinks I am lost, that is their perception.
If I feel like I am lost, I am probably trying to ride someone other persons expectations of me.

Authenticity means being honest with who you are.
Trying to be compassionate and loving towards others.
Not trying to hurt others when you don't agree.
But trying to find inner peace with the fact that everyone is on their own Journey!

If you think someone is lost stop and ask yourself,
Which Journey did I expect them to be on?
If a client comes to me and says, "I am lost,"
I always say,
"Whose Journey are you trying to follow?  Whose rules are you following on your Journey?"

Don't get lost,
Follow your truth
Live Authentically

AND

When you find yourself wandering
Enjoy the journey
It's not really being lost
It's called

EXPLORING

Get on your knees and pray to whatever you believe in

I uttered those words on my private facebook page.  

There was an out cry of fear.  People telling me that statement is ominous.  

How can a statement of faith be ominous unless you have fear or do not truly have faith?

First let me define my God:  He is not a traditional version of God.  My God is an energy of love, compassion, kindness, unending spiritual intelligence and did I mention Love.  He is the energy we all strive to be.

Let me start from the beginning:

I walked outside with my dogs and closed my eyes.  Sadness, fear and fatigue have been plaguing me.  My truest sadness feeling that we are at the end of days.  The ending feeling ever present over my shoulder.  I closed my eyes and felt a fire burning inside of me like none I have felt before.  A rage at the state of the world, the focus on the negative and I felt a tear fall down my face.  That is the moment an overwhelming calm washed over me.  A moment of pure bliss I have now assigned this sensation after years of working with spirit to Jesus.

The download was simple, "get on your knees and pray."

We spend more time in front of the internet reading articles, fighting with people, getting angry when people do not see our point of view that we forget to just pray.

Now let me define this for you.

Pray:  to address or make a solemn request of state appreciation and thanks to a deity, god, an object of worship.

This is not about saying a traditional Hail Mary or some other traditional prayer, this is about praying, and focusing on love, appreciation.

There is a real fear, kids are being killed, focus on negative impacts of politics, letting the color of skin, religious choices, politics and a cluster of a thousand other issues divide us.  We will never agree with everything our friends think.  We will never agree with every stance on an issue or view on a topic.  We have lost friends over how we vote, whether we believe in getting rid of AR-15 or how we choose to worship.  Why are we letting the world be divided by hate and fear?

We see movements towards equality and then we fear again.  Faith is something greater than us is lost and we flounder.  WE doubt because there is suffering.  Having faith through the ugly is truly the test of our belief is it not?  Is that not the time we have to send out more positive, love and compassion.  We need to work as a community to accept other peoples belief systems and story.  

Every religion can bring about positive out comes for the members if they hear the positive messages, not the fear written into the stories.  The bible was initially from God and then Man put his hand into the work and turned it into a fear based faith.  That is not what we are supposed to follow, fear.  Fear, hate, discord leads to negativity.

The devil is not going to bring about the end of days because humans are already doing that.  They are already creating their own discord.  We are destroying ourselves, our souls and the earth.

Change you.

How does your Garden Grow?

Monday ponderings

TRUE STORY

Last night I had a gallery and there was a man who came through.  His name was Al, as he was talking to his daughter he was ranting.  He was talking about how he was a hard worker and the problem with society today is we are a bunch of complainers.  Our boss is mean, oh boo hoo, go look for another job then.  Stop blaming the boss for your misery, if you are there you know how he/she is and you can just ignore it, learn how to deal with him/her.  Stand up for yourself, if you loose your job it wasn't meant to be.  Be thankful you have a job, car, roof over your head.  It's not the size of the house, the car you drive that defines success, it's how you enjoy your life!

NOW, this goes against every core of who I am.  To attack anyone because of their way of dealing with pain, hurt, crazy bosses.  However, he reminded me of a very important lesson, we sometimes choose misery.  The saying, "misery loves company", popped in my head.  It is true, in the land of social media we just have a complaint platform don't we?  People commiserate with us, send us the I am so sorry you are feeling this way posts.  Really though, no one can fix that for you.  No one is going to go up to your boss and yell at them.

When I was growing up my Dad worked 14-18 hour days nearly every day, 7 days a week.  Now I hear people bitch about only working 40 hours a week.  People love to complain, because then others complain and we have people who understand us, isn't it great?  That is the T-Rex, that is why he is here, because complaining eats everything up.  It can become a ginormous monster if we allow it, sharp teeth digging into us, destroying out joy.

Today I saw 20 complaints about daylight savings time, 7 abused dog photos, 27 complaints about the impending storm, and the list goes on.  We sit in negativity as a society sometimes, looking at all that is going wrong.  Is that because as a society we are all raised to fix things, or be a problem solver?  I am not sure but it is becoming more and more prevalent.  I have a lot of friends who have gone of social media completely and found center, balance and a better perspective of what is important to them.  

Be grateful for what you have, share when you can and if a job is making you that miserable, change it. 

How does your garden grow?

Blessings

Back to Blogging

Beauty

There is something beautiful about nothing. 

I don't know how to explain it really but to say it is simply ease.

I feel often in the quiet I am most closely connected to the source of love and light.

I would say when I am in silence I am most myself.

Silence works for me.

Here it is Friday, my phone is broken and I am looking at the computer.

I thought, what haven't I done in a while.

I have not sat in silence. 

I sat for a minute.

I realized how much I dislike human form.

I realized how much I dislike human stress.

I realized how much I dislike human disease.

I realized how much I dislike human complacency.

I realized how difficult being a human is.

I am not sure I have a solution for this condition we call life,

But it is just a condition.

A very short stay on a big world.

A very short stay in a dimension.

Then I thought, but many keep coming back.

Why do we want to come back here.

Touch

Smell

Taste

Love

Affection

There are wonderful things

Here

There

Everywhere

We often get stuck in the tactile sensations of human existence

We forget we are in charge of it

We choose what things we want

We choose what people we keep and let go of

We choose every day to direct our life

Yet many blame others for loss or failures

Some look at themselves for errors and get angry at themselves

None of that helps our souls grow

What does is

Silence

Sitting inside of ourselves

Releasing our fears

Our disdain for our humanness

Filling it full of LOVE

Filling the space with in our soul and heart with LOVE

Your time here may already be half over

It might be time to say goodbye tomorrow

Can you say you lived in love

You forgave yourself

Or were you always chasing the dollar

For what

A nicer car

House

Vacation

You will still die like the rest of us

When I chase dollars

It is for basics

For food

Cloth 

Modest Home

I just want 

SILENCE

LOVE

ACCEPTANCE

Shift perception

How does your garden grow

Book Writing and the Evolution of a Story

I am not the greatest writer.
I fail basic grammar rules.
I fail keeping my shit together.
I just fail at writing in a proper manner approved by American Standards but screw that noise.

What I fail in grammar correctness, spelling perfection I make up for in passion.
I make up with mental candy and spiritual thoughts.

I am not here to be perfect but to value where I excel and be okay with what I don't.

So here it is:

I was working on my book and at first it was my Ghost Stories and how I embraced by Medium status.  It was about how I embraced ME!  Well how egocentric is that?  I was like, "What are you doing Celeste?  Isn't the point of this book about helping others grow?"

I realized at that moment that this blog has been an evolution too.  As we spiritually grow we start to get more information that is maybe a little different than before.  As this goes on I realize that what I knew before was not wrong, it was correct for that passage in my Journey.

Jesus said to me today during a reading, "Everything is right and nothing is correct."  

All of our beliefs hinge on our up bringing and then the things we read and then.....

The more we explore, the more we push ourselves through meditation and study we learn even more.

My Journey is not right for everyone and some journey's are not right for me.  As I watch some people stop the journey I think, "that is all they need."

Let us not judge other people on their Journey.  Let us not tell them how to get there.  Do not belittle those who do not do as you do but raise them up to find their path.  Help light their way and if they diverge from your path pray a light will come to help them continue on their way.

Spirit, GOD, Universal Knowledge is at every persons spiritual finger tips.  You have to put the time and energy into the meditation, journaling, and studying however that suits you.  Follow your intuition as you study and follow your path.

My new book title.
Spiritual Growth and the BS that comes along with it.
If we can't smile, laugh and be with joy, we are missing the point of the journey.  One can not lead the spiritual evolution with a lower vibration of EGO over running their methodology.  I have taken my ego out of the story and focused on the how to and the consequences of choosing a more spiritual path.  The consequences like letting go of ego and letting go of energies that are pulling you down.  Having to let go of all your teaches and create a vulnerability like you have never felt.  Strip yourself of all trauma and trouble, to rebuild by taking what you need and leaving behind what you don't.

It is a story where I will touch on my experiences as an example but not as the story.
I lost my father in law, my uncle, my father to stroke and then death, my mother, my child inside of me and what is left, a rawness that I had to face.  That rawness in the last year has revised a ton of my understanding.

How does your Garden Grow?

I've been absent from my Blog but not my LIFE

Life has a funny way of twisting and turning is all around.

Since my last blog in June of 2016 my father has passed away, I have moved and I got an office.

In the grand scheme of things I have not written, not just because of the events in my life but because I have been present in my life.

As weird as it sounds I have been trying to make more of an effort of being present in my life and further away from electronics.  I realize that in some ways this has been a blessing and in other ways it has created a void between my creative self and my work/mother/sister/daughter/wife self.

I had spent many years on Improv and Stand-Up, creating laughter is a passion of mine that I dropped.

I had spent many years trying to be more focused on writing, creating thought or entertainment is a passion of mine I dropped.

Sometimes life does this weird thing of redirecting our ego into different directions.  This is not always a bad thing but it is a thing.

I am not more focused on blending all of my parts into one.

The first step is more meditation and being okay with making time for the electronics.  I should not fear the thing that allows me an opportunity to reach out to those I want to.

I am presenting a class on mindfulness as I am focusing more on those things myself.  I have so much knowledge and yet I have not been implementing the techniques and information I have learned.  I have forgotten to release my fear.

As I write this I am putting out to the universe that I trust they will bring forth what I need to honor all previous obligations financially and emotionally I have made.

Blessings to all,
I hope to get back to this blog more frequently and once I start my classes back up hopefully more posts to tie in to conversations regarding the classes.

Celeste

How does your Garden Grown?

Humanity and it's beautiful twisted faults

I AM NOT PERFECT

I have seen more and more people struggle with saying these four words.

I AM NOT PERFECT

I am allowed to make mistakes

I am allowed to fail people

I am allowed to be angry

I am allowed to be sad

I am allowed to be hurt

I am allowed to not like someone

I am allowed to make a judgment of what is best for me

I am allowed to be hateful 

I am allowed to experience every human emotions there is because I AM HUMAN

I am allowed NOT TO HAVE PERFECT PUNCTUATION AND GRAMMAR

BY GOLLY I AM HUMAN

STRIVING FOR PERFECTION

As spiritual beings many of us strive to not judge, be a pillar of love and kindness.  We try to talk ourselves out of our every day emotional experiences thinking we need to somehow rise above the humanity in us all.

I think it is beautiful when we get angry!

I think it is beautiful when we are moved to experience emotions.

I think it is necessary for humans to not see as life a battle between being an all loving and perfect soul vs our humanity.

We are here to learn lessons and each of those listed and many more are emotions or moments to grow from.  To just trust that we had a reason to experiences things the way we did.  To not judge ourselves as imperfect but rather imperfectly perfect.

I remember, a few years back, I struggled with accepting that I could be angry or not like people.  I may not like them but I still send them love and compassion.  I hope they grown and learn to be more soul like and less ego like.  The fact of the matter is though, we never will be just soul like until we die.  If I have a mentor come to me like she is already an Angel here I can not trust her.  I need someone who understands the fact we chose to come here and experience life again for a reason.  We should not walk away from the opportunity, but use it to understand how to be more soul like.  

I know that sounds a little contradicting but it isn't.

Our goal here is to experience our selves in a human form, all the while trying to keep in tact our souls purpose.  That purpose is to live in this body with love, compassion and kindness.  To be able to forgive our human side and move forward from the need to control every aspect of our existence.

It's okay to be imperfectly perfect.  Embrace that, love it.